Surrendering Requires Discipline

I chose the word surrendered for my one word focus in 2014. I knew I had changes to make if I was going to live a life of surrender. Seven days in and I am seeing this word is the one word that represents a Christian life. It is a giving up of oneself. It is giving it all to God. Everything.

The first change I find myself working on is time. I had become a selfish user of my time. It was all about me. Of course, we all have things on our schedule that aren't all about ourselves, but what I found was when nothing was on my schedule, I took all that time and spent it doing simple, foolish tasks. I filled my time with nothing of value. It wouldn't help anyone. It wouldn't grow or change me. It wouldn't show an almighty God I love and am so thankful for Him and His work in my life. I was filling my life up with empty-void-minute-filling-tasks.

I had every excuse in the world. I am too tired. I just need to do brainless activity after such a full day. I deserve some down time. The excuses and the activity all revolved around ME.

To change that I had to initiate some self-discipline. I looked at my time and created a schedule that is filled with much more valuable items. I scheduled time I would spend in God's word, time to write, time to pray, time to read and time to be quiet and reflect. I will do the brainless activity still, but it will come after more time is spent on the best things.

I am quite certain God will continue to point out more changes I need to make. He will point out other things I need to surrender. I am realizing that this life was the life I was meant to live every year. Every day. Every moment. Surrendered to God's will.

In my devotion this morning was this, "Believing and trusting are hard work because they involve a surrendering process, a giving-up of control."  I have more to give up, more to set before Him that I have hung on to. He owns it all.

I know I have a year ahead where I will be learning how to surrender more.

"For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline."
2 Timothy 1:7

One Word 2014

One day I made a choice to follow Christ. I decided to commit my life to Him, no longer wanting to be in charge, I wanted Him in charge. Then began the journey. I made a decision that day and He took hold of my hand. But like any child, I pulled from His hand and attempted to move my way, make my choices, turned away from His plan....and He has allowed it for a time, allowed me to taste the consequences of those decisions. But He knew the commitment I made, and knew I would realize over, and over again I needed Him. I can't get it right. But that tug of war continues. Like many Christians I always hang on to things. I still make decisions that are selfish, cowardly, trying to fit in here. I never really give totally. I reflect back on 2013 and I see I've come a long way from that young teen who made that decision. I pull less, and look away less....but He continues to show me areas I hold back. Which led me to choose my word for this upcoming year...surrendered. I want to daily seek out His will and make a more conscious effort to seek Him first...not myself.

So what will that look like?

My time. I eat away time doing silly, foolish things that make no difference. I need to surrender more of my time for things that shine God's light. I need to be in His Word, study it, understand, seek Him out. I need to see all His plans for me. He gave me a love for writing...maybe a little talent. I hardly write any more, I need to write more.

Building relationships. I don't give anyone enough of my time. My time is not intentional enough. I need to be more focused on those I know, those he places me with, those who may have needs I can meet. I use to be great about phone calls, letters/cards, spending time talking and listening. I need to be willing to sacrifice more. I need to be more Christ like...He was there, all the time, for everyone.

Prayer. My prayer life has grown...a lot. But, it isn't where it should be. My moments should be full of intentional prayer.

I want the work of my heart and my hands to bring others to know Christ as I know Him. I want many to experience the relationship I have.

The rest I know He will reveal to me. I need to be open and ready. Ready to see what He wants me to surrender. I need to be ready to do what He wants, when He wants and how He wants. I need to just follow where His hand leads me.


2014...SURRENDERED

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