Yesterday I watched a little video done by the SkitGuys....and they said something that really stayed with me. God created human beings...not human doers.
Fast forward to this morning with that still on my mind...and thinking about heading into another day in the classroom. It is May...11days left and I am tired. The kids are a handful, and I am reflecting on the year, wondering why they didn't learn this or that...and I hear that quiet voice of God.
I know I didn't hear these words loud and clear, but this is basically what He told me,
"Terry, you have a very small portion of what I deal with. You have set your rules...and they don't follow them. Sinners. 18 little sinners. 18 little children of God who don't seem to be listening. 18 little children who want to do things their way and not listen to your way. 18 little children who give you glimpses of what they can and will do, and it's gone again. It sounds much like my world. I gave a few rules...and not one of you can follow them. You are selfish and want things your way. I try to teach you...over and over again. "
I am following...I am hearing him.
"And what do I do Terry?...I love them. I love you. I love you all the time....even when you are doing all these things. I need you to be a human "being"....you need to let them see me through you. You need to love them...all of them. Love takes discipline too. You love them first, I will help you with the rest. "
And all through the day I heard it again, and again. Love them. Love them all. Love the ones that are hard to love, even more. Let them know they are loved.
I believe one is called into teaching. I think this is why. I believe every one of my 18 are there for a reason, I believe he specifically chose them to be there. I can not do what he asked me in my own power...so I will submit this to prayer every day. I will be with these same children next year....and I need to learn to love, and believe He will take care of the rest. This is my mission field. This is where I am to "be".
I know I learned more about God once I was in a relationship with him, I was more capable of listening and following his lead when I knew how much he loved me. I must be guided by his example.
"Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us..."
May you find salt and light in my words!